I intended on updating my journal for days now, but it's difficult for me to even bother as I don't feel the need to let all who lurk to know about my life on a daily basis. As a disclaimer, this isn't meant to offend those who do update more than a few times a week; I enjoy reading journals to those who I have befriended, not vice versa.

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To put this entry short and sweet, a bracelet that the boyfriend's mom gave to me snapped a few nights ago. I treasured that bracelet, so Christian is going to pick it up before he heads to Virginia for Christmas and see if his mom or grandmother can repair or replace it for another. I'd, of course, pay them as it would be inappropriate for me to not.

Before or after, I cannot recall, I experienced an immense amount of pain that I hoped to never recognize again. I literally could not walk, let alone stand up, nor could I even make the slightest of moves. My vision faded in and out and I had an urge to vomit from the intense ache. The silly thing is I know exactly what I did to cause it and it's far too embarrassing to announce, lol.

Otherwise, life is swell.

I'm in such a sour mood that the smallest of annoyances will set me off on a tangent. Otherwise, everything has been great so far. I'm dishing out sketches of my androgynous girls at a rapid speed, and my boyfriend and sister are always there to turn my day around when on a bad note.

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My horoscope for today provides appropriate advice. "Settle down and really focus on that big project -- your mind is better able to concentrate today than usual, and you can almost certainly whip it into shape in a way that makes it easier to handle from now on." I'd like to focus my mind, but it's so scrambled at the moment that I'm about ready to call it a day and snooze.

There are twenty cans of soda in my room. Nineteen of them rest on my desk while one sits on my television stand. Yeah, my lifestyle has become incredibly unhealthy. Where did my determination for responsibility go?

I lack motivation and commitment. Inspiration is the least of my worries as I have an immense amount. Completing anything that's at hand proves difficult for myself; I lose interest far too easily. With this in mind, a career in the field of art is becoming dim while a desk job sounds more practical and, of course, far less desirable. In a nutshell, my dreams are taking a sharp turn to failure.

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Halloween was spent with my boyfriend and my sister. The boyfriend and I went as zombies that later turned into car accident victims, and the sister went as a sexy sailor.

Our design budget was no more than twenty dollars; seventeen-and-some-cents was spent in total. Cheap makeup purchased at Party City, my own inexpensive brushes, and food coloring made our costumes possible. If this wasn't so last-minute and poorly theorized, our completed look would have had better execution. Regardless, we did a job well-done, and our night couldn't have gone any greater than what it had.

Christian never ceases to make me happy and more in love with him.

BIG FIVE PERSONALITY QUESTIONAIRE

openness
This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 46% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is aware of their feelings but doesn't get carried away with their imagination either. You might say that you embrace change when it is necessary while still resisting it when you think it is not, and that beauty is important to you, but it's not everything.

conscientiousness
This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 8% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is impulsive and whimsical, and fine with it! From your responses it appears that you would say that sometimes decisions need to be made quickly, and that you make them quicker than most! You would say you are zany, colourful, and just generally great fun to be with... as long as someone isn't relying on you to get some work done.

extraversion
This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 8% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is quiet and somewhat withdrawn. Your answers describe you as someone who doesn't need lots of other people around to have fun, and can sometimes find that people are tiring.

agreeableness
This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 34.5% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who people can find difficult to get along with when you first meet, as you can be suspicious of their motives. Your responses suggest that over time though people warm to you, and you to them, although that doesn't stop you telling them "how it is".

neuroticism (emotional stability)
This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 54% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is generally calm. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can feel emotional or stressed out by some experiences, however your feelings tend to be warranted by the situation.

JUNGIAN TYPOLOGY ESTIMATE

ISTP
introverted sensing thinking perceivingISTPs excel at analyzing situations to reach the heart of a problem so that they can swiftly implement a functional repair, making them ideally suited to the field of engineering. Naturally quiet people, they are interested in understanding how systems operate, focusing on efficient operation and structure. They are open to new information and approaches. But contrary to their seemingly quiet and detached natures, ISTPs are often capable of humorously insightful observations about the world around them, and can be closet daredevils who live on the edge by gravitating toward fast-moving or risky hobbies. ISTPs tend to save their energy until they see a project worthy of their time, and then they launch themselves at it.

This isn't so much an update as it is an observation, but I giggle at teenagers who claim to be immensely interested in gore, creepy stories, or other strange activities when all they go to are sites of repetitive scenarios and claim "they've seen it all". Ya'll ain't see shit until you get your hands on some authentic viral videos, ya hear me?

It's only a matter of hours now before the boyfriend and I leave Virginia for the sunshine state. I rarely miss anything, but I'll, without a doubt, miss Virginia. But it's not as if we're leaving without a bang, so to say! Rock climbing near rough tides was in the agenda and I never felt so... tranquil as I was when climbing that mountain. Not only that, but I have a rush of motivation and inspiration to create something magnificent when I return home. I'm leaving behind a newly discovered love, but I can guarantee like, most of my interests, this is only the beginning.

There goes the remainder of my money--into a lomography fisheye film camera. It was purchased in China Town of Washington D.C. The camera itself looks like a cheap toy camera with a prominent lens. The film, on the other hand, lingers as a mystery.

As for China Town, it's not as China-esque as I had imagined. Chinese lettering and restaurants, a beautiful overhang, and more Asians running around than you can count. I was expecting something, I don't know, more cultured and festive. Altogether, it was a refreshing experience.

What is it about this apartment that is causing me to sneeze multiple times on a daily basis? Granted, there's dust resting on the furniture, but it's no different than the assumed amount in my own home. And not only have I involuntarily convulsed, I developed a twenty-four hour flu earlier this month. The universe, or my immune system, is convincing me to visit the doctor as soon as I arrive home.

The boyfriend and I are heading home on the 29th of September from Virginia. Compared to Florida, this is a gateway to Heaven. I can only speak for so much of Virginia seeing as I have not traveled too much in this state alone, but there's far more trees, thicker and greener grass, the police force do not seem to take advantage of simple guidelines such as the speed limit, and the variety of race is enough to be joyous about altogether. In a nutshell, Virginia has its shit together unlike my piss-poor of a state called Florida.

Regardless, this trip has shown me that, despite my disgust for my home state, moving elsewhere without familiar faces leaves me depleted.